Hi Halfswede

Maybe you would benefit from some form of treatment? You can try and be as logical in your reasoning as you want but if your thoughts are starting to be dominated by numbers, their actions and what their purpose imposing on your life might be i would suggest talking to someone and see if they can offer you the appropriate support.

It may be a comfort to know that i used to feel this way about words. I became obsessed with needing to think of how they sounded backwards and i wouldn't be able to drive by a sign or read something somewhere without wanting to know what those words looked and sounded like both ways if you see what i mean. It felt like a need to get the most out of them - to experience something fully or otherwise i would be missing out. I agree it can seem very bizarre but your most certainly not alone