I'm working on the idea that she is T, not new T, but for the sake of clarity I'll call her newT for now anyway.

I think it's been 6 or 8 weeks now that I've been seeing her weekly. Most of the first month at least was pretty much me going in there and crying about exT for an hour. I haven't been crying as much the past couple of weeks.

I guess things are going ok. I don't feel like we're really doing any work, which was ok because what I really needed was support. I have been missing the lack of DBT, though. I guess I expected to talk about the skills more. She had me doing diary cards for a few weeks but she would just take the card and that was it. we never talked about it, and then she quit asking.

Last week when we were setting up a time for our next meeting she asked me if I still wanted to see her weekly. That surprised me, and it's been making me think about things. One of which is what I mentioned above, the lack of dbt skill building. I just don't feel like we are going anywhere, like we have any goals.

I guess I'm still struggling with how different this is from therapy as I knew it, and maybe it's ok but it's just so different.

I'm going to try to talk to her about this stuff, but I'm also bringing in the letter from exT and I suspect that may take up the whole session.

Speaking of which, she gives me 60 mins, not 50 which is what I'm used to. That extra 10 minutes really makes it feel long, lol!

Also, she has passed gas, loudly, in each of my last 2 sessions. AWKWARD.