That's kind of a witty but evasive response by your T, CantExplain. I'd be upset if I actually asked for comfort and didn't get it! I'd never ask for it, though--one of my issues, I guess.

Huh. I wonder if it's because I have been with this therapist for years and have never really openly had this kind of reaction with her. Or, if I did, it must have been 3 years ago when I really first started meeting with her. I've had tearful moments but I've always been very controlled and put the burden of keeping myself safe on me. It actually seems a little sad to me now becaue I bet in the past she could have helped me at times when I felt distressed but wouldn't say anything. I really don't know what happened this past week or what was going on with me. It felt like grief, maybe, or panic. It was so weird. Maybe both of us were surprised! I just know that even though it was weird and scary and hard and felt out of my control, having her there to comfort me at the very end helped me ultimately to feel more in control when I did leave. I hope that's okay and I want to use this knowlege to act more appropriately in the future. I'm so scared to find out I'm doing something wrong or that she regrets how she reacted. Eek.