oh SarahMichelle!! You are more than wonderful! To go through all this time without t is impressive; I feel I wouldn't be able to do that. I'm also glad you can take care of t's dog. I'll pray for her to come home soon so you can finally have someone to talk to and maybe help the inside kids to feel less in pain!
I know it's not easy but I'm also sure you can keep holding on, as you already did so good

take care
faith