I'm not having any issues right now, but I was thinking of opening up this disscution for the future.

I think I have agoraphobia, but I haven't had it dx'd yet. Getting there.

It's not too bad, but it gets worse the longer I leave it. Essentially, most days I can't leave my apartment. I've had to rework my schedule to accommodate because I am also a part time university student with a LD that requires me to be in the classroom to actually learn anything, as well as T downtown, and I am wanting to go back to work.

Does anyone else struggle with the extreme challenge that is walking out your door? For me I am fine until I try to leave my apartment, and then the harder I try the more I find myself in the corner of my kitchen crying and shaking. Luckily it doesn't happen all the time, but I never know when it's going to happen. I find it very hard to leave for "little" reasons, like laundry, or groceries and can usually fight past it for school, or therapy or appointments.

I rely on my parents a lot, which I find really embarrassing because I'm 20 and live on my own. They help me get my groceries, and will let me do my laundry at they're place, and when I can't do it even with them there, they will often offer to do it for me. I find it really hard to be out without my mom or dad or someone else (like my sister, who lives in Waterloo, which is no help at all).

I appreciate they're support, it's probably the thing I'm grateful for the most in life, but I don't want to keep relying on them like this. My mom just broke her leg, so I'm not going to be able to get drives to places, and I have to get to therapy on my own tomorrow. I'm really worried I won't be able to again, and although my T does sessions over skype if it's needed I don't like doing that. I don't like relying on people or getting special treatment (mostly because it makes you stick out), and I just want to be able to do this on my own. I'm planing on moving to another province in September and I want to be able to get to class, and T, and get groceries on my own!

I guess what I'm really asking is does anyone else out there go through this, and have resources to help concur it on your own? Anything you found helpful? Because the only thing that makes it go away for me is to not fight it... and that's not an option.