this is a sure hard thing to reply to....I just really don't want to look like or seem like a 'show pony'....to get attention like this is beautiful and likewise frightening

...but I must reply...you have all been so great to me here.

I tried my best to abandon myself and everyone....please I am sorry for in the process I removed all my friends but couldn't completely de-activate my pc universe? ...I wanted to remove all evidence of where I had been messing up....and what better borderline way than messing up ten times as much!

I am wiggling my way back to you...

I sure didn't feel like a 'legend' while 5 cops dragged me out my driveway last friday at 10am and performed wrestlemania while paramedics sedated me face down on the footpath!...the public borderline is an unusual creature...when it feels something it does not care who is watching.

I'm surely not a 'myth'....unless I mythed thomething....I know I did not myth the ED as I wandered free back to my borderline jungle after waking up feeling truly mental sometime that evening doped up to the limit and knocked me into warp speed horrors and panic for 2 and a half days.....

made it home somehow

I know I mythbehaved and you have forgiven me...

yes I am a 'man'....with some serious complications and I am deeply grateful for all of you

love you very much.....just wiggling back a little at a time yep..

xxoo monkey