For new years i stayed in my room all day while the rest of my family was out in the living room drinking and chatting. I think its the noise that really gets to me, its overwhelming and i feel self conscious and it just feels bad in general to be around people. I also get really irritated because all i want is some breathing room and it seems like i dont get any. I KNOW that other people probably have it much much worse ive been to therapy groups and felt like an asshole just for ever having felt bad when i heard their stories but i guess it just gets to me. Anyway i guess the point is im having real trouble getting it through to my family that the reason that i need their help with so i can get my life going and all that but it just seems like we constantly argue over small pointless things all the time. Gahhh i dont really know how to put it all into words and make it short and sweet, it feels like there's alot and there is... My mum is sorta bats and kinda just yells and keeps everyone on edge at least once a day and i cant feel ok around that. I want peace and quiet and i have anxiety just constantly eroding my whatever it is anxiety erodes. And ive tried talking to her but its liek talking to a wall really. Anyone else have a living situation like this? Conversations just seem to quickly degenerate into arguments and flaring moods and having BPD doesn't help one bit because il either end up just being angry for the rest of the day or feeling like life is hopeless and then il drown myself in online games to numb my brain. i saw some threads about happy places and that sounds amazing but i dont know how to make that happen in my house since people have the communication skills of monkeys in heat in this house (myself included) and just like yell through walls and doors and demand things from like the kitchen to someone thats int he basement or into their bedroom. or taking a ****. and then get mad when they dont get an answer.. first post guys bear with me sry if its like completely unanswerable