Bc suicide is only giving up. Suicide is lack of faith. I have my son. My son is the product of my bestfriend raping me for the first time. Very long story filled with many details but I have my son and I have faith that God will never give me more than I can handle. The feeling that I am tired and just ready to be 97 yrs old, on my deathbd, surrounded by fat grandchildren, and quickly slipping away is most definatly there, but I'm not suicidal. I'm just tired. Reasons to live are your reasons not to commit suicide.