I agree with the others. You've been depressed a long time--now you deserve to feel better!

And please try not to worry about "popping pills"--the antidepressants are totally different from the kind of "recreational" drugs that some people use. They're not addictive and they don't give you a phony "high" like street drugs can--they only help to correct the biochemical imbalances in the brain that cause depression in the first place. So really for a depressed person to take an antidepressant drug is no different from a diabetic person taking insulin!

Good luck--please let us know how you're doing!