I'm not ready for treatment maybe? I started treatment a while back, I did feel I was being pushed into it from my Pdoc and T. So I tried to take a giant leap and just do it. But I'm finding it difficult to even try to get the brain to want to keep on track.

What is holding me back, is the wanting to get better part. It would be nice to be free from it all. But it just isn't enough for me. And I don't know what would be enough. My life, my kids, these things should be enough right? Have I been ill for far too long? I've overcome numerous addictions in my life, but this which feels much like an addiction in ways, I just can't get a grasp on.

The treatment has not been of much help to me, and honestly I don't know if it ever will be. So where do you go from here? I don't know.

So how does the treatment work, or how does one work the treatment?