I want so much to rise above the garbage and find a place to call home...home is so far away and getting further from me...the other day I was replying to a poem in CC and just lost it and started replying to all the posts with just the person's name who posted it...I think that was a cry for help or it was just another step in me losing my mind...I have no idea why really and the only reason I stopped was because I got a pm asking what I was doing...I am so lost...even with a T I feel I can't let him in too deep...the group session isn't going anywhere either...I wonder where it will all end...but then deep down I know where it will end...if I could get it straight in my head that it's not too late...but it just won't stop...I'm sorry for going on like this...