After having a bit of a break down last year, I finally agreed with the school counsellor to send out an accommodation letter just in case. But the problem I'm having now is, she told me I need to speak to each prof to confirm they got it and just a brief "I don't expect to need them but I will email you in advance if I do".

The thought of doing this is too much. They have it already -i can't! I think in a sense that's what makes this all real to me. But I made it through high school and 3/4 of college without this (I had anxiety problems all along just didn't recognize what it was). At this point in my program I'm in a very small class. I dread the idea of making this real and using it to say, write an exam in another room. I can't just sneak out, everyone would ask why I "didn't write".

Ahh the idea of talking to profs about this is making me panic. I can handle emailing them if I need to use an accommodation I think but I hate talking face to face and
I don't know how to do this!