Hi all,
Last night I had a vivid dream that was very upsetting. In this dream, one of my closest friends had died, and I received an invite to his funeral. The other "layer" to this is that I used to have feelings for this friend - but have since gotten over them (years ago), and now see him as just a friend. In the dream I was so distraught because my boyfriend had never had the chance to meet the friend, and I regretted that.

Without looking this up on some website, I already know death doesn't necessarily represent actual death. I think it's more like a "new beginning," the death of one situation happens so a new one can arise. I'm wondering if this symbolizes the death of that friend meaning what he used to mean to me, and instead becoming more of just a close friend. It's weird that it would happen now, because I can honestly say I thought I resolved those feelings in 2009!

On another level, this friend lives on the east coast, where I am from. I will soon be going back to the west coast after completion of a huge project for my doctorate. A lot of people miss me and wish I would come back to the east coast, but I've resigned myself to stay out there for a lot of reasons. I wonder if there is some sort of guilt buried in my subconscious, too.