Sorry you're having a hard time, newtus.

I'm here today and doing okay.

I was worried that on the higher dose my son would be too sedated, and he wouldn't have enough emotional life to "work with" so to speak. Never fear! He got angry with me last night, but it didn't overwhelm him the way it did when he was on the lower dose. We were able to talk it through and go on to have a reasonably happy evening.