I told Therapist-- about every thing-- all the bad thoughts, all the acting upon them, about to do them, deep planning on the no failure on the plans..... I did not tell her per say the plans... but enough I think. She was concerned, told me to take a verbal contact with her, and to see the nurse to ask about this med they put me on---- but told Therapist I also lied the last time I was in with her, that i had a problem, and a big problem i could not talk about with her, but brushed on to day.....

She tells me not to be hopeless; she sees a lot of potential in me-- and it is me that has to accept these good things that people see in me and tell me... i will try

I read the chapter of the packet she gave me too-- it says to fill out when more stable so will do so. but i read it and underlined things that I feel close with-- that i understand, and that I should keep remembering to try to help self.....

Waiting for call to see if I am to take meds again today or stop.