The bother - this is a little bit of it. My dog usually goes all day without going out to go potty b/c I work from 9am-4pm. Now, he has to go until 6pm...that's a long time for him!

The counselor is nice. I think she thinks I'm more put together than I am. The last time I was there I was talking about going off my meds. I think she's going to be in for a big surprose.

The topic you know you'll discuss?
I really want to vent about stuff going on, so that will be good. I don't think I'm dreading or in fear of discussing anything. I feel, rather, that I might have too much to discuss.

I also think my tummy is bothering me - I have ulcerative colitis...and it's been flaring lately (and does so when I am stressed)...I would prefer to go home and just lay down, I think. I should call my doc - I'm up for bloodwork this week AND I need some refills. I'm avoiding calling during the day at work, though.

I think I fear I might not get any resolution from tonight's meeting. What if it doesn't help? Especially with my relationship issues/decisions. That's been weighing on my mind heavily lately.

What if she has an opinion as to whether I should increase or decrease my medication dosage...I fear both things, actually.