Bekki,
Sounds like you could use some friends. If you can find a more compassionate crowd than us in real life, then go for it. If not, why not stay with us a while? I don't think withdrawal and isolation does anybody any good. Mother Teresa sure knew what she was talking about when she said:

"Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat."