You could be writing about me in that post instead of you!! I deal with the exact same struggles all the time. Not to mention i have been wanting to make my dog an ESA or service dog for a while now, but cant get over the anxiety that keeps me from doing all that needs to be done to get it accomplished! (past training my dog, that is) Why does no one seem to even be able to imagine how excruciatingly torturous these difficulties are for us?? I feel like this at least. So very frustrating. Unfortunately I have no helpful advice hopefully someone else will. it's nice to know I'm not alone, hope that fact comforts you as well.