Rose76

I am so sorry to read about the situation you are in. I hope this will help somehow. I am new to the forum but have had many hospitalizations for severe depression and in my experience all the replies I read are very accurate. So my advice to is to voice your suicidal feelings and the fact that you have no outside support I know where I am from they cannot turn you away for these reasons. As for pulling yourself up by your bootstraps sometimes we all need a little help getting started with that plan.