Sometimes at night I cry so hard that I just want to drown myself in my tears because the pain is so much. But...I don't want to die...for real that is. I mean I know that my life kinda sucks right now but I'm holding on to that little bit of faith that I have left and hoping that someday it will one day be better. That faith is what keeps me going. Not only that but if think about suicide I always wonder how my family and friends would react. My dad would go into a fog. My mother would probably break into a nervous breakdown. My friends would cry for days and be wondering why I could take my own life. And when I think of all that, suddenly taking my own life doesn't seem worth it.

By the way, I'm sorry you're feeling so down. :[ Hope things go better for you <3