I've been on my current medication regime for about three months now--and during that time I've noticed a marked improvement in my mood, thoughts, appetite and actions.

Recently, though--pretty much since Christmas, I've noticed some marked changes--some days, my personality changes, I'm much less introverted and more likely to interact with others--though not, I think, to the point of being bi-polar. After that, the bottom falls out, and I'll spend days in bed, crying. Most of all, I've developed an intense disliking of being touched--even my dogs trying to cuddle up to me is too much, and I push them away. This is what bothers me the most. I know that touch is an important way that people (and dogs) bond, but the thought of contact with another being makes my skin crawl.

For the record, I haven't been physically or sexually abused (verbally and emotionally, yes), though I've had more than one therapist tell me that the way my depression manifests is typical of a sexual abuse victim.

To cap this all off, the therapist I've been seeing for the past 9 months or so has left the on-campus clinic. I know I should go see another one, but I really don't feel up to going over all the crap that is my life yet again--a big part of the reason I don't like to change therapists. I've been wondering about just talking to my doctor, but I'm afraid he'd just up my meds, and considering that I'm already taking far more than the dosage recommended by the manufacturer, I'm not sure that'd be a good idea.

Anyway, any thoughts or suggestions. I feel stuck here, and I know there's help, but I don't know where to find it.