Im 26 and was diagnosed clinical depression at age 14, adhd at age 15, anxiety/ocd at 23yo. At 23yo i checked myself into a hospital because I thought i was having a nervous break down. ( Racing thoughts, rapid heartbeat, strange thought } They told me it was anxiety and ocd, and have been taking citaopram 20mg, and valium 10mg once a day, and 1mg xanax as needed for panic attacks..
Sometimes I dont even call them panic attacks, they are more like depression attacks, i lay in bed to miserable to do much of anything. I also started abilify 5mg which kinda worked, than stopped working and i ran out of the samples dr. gave me, im going back on the 3rd. I have no energy, motivation, and am pushing my friends, gf, family away. I admit life isnt going very well, but I cant help but think even if I had no problems, I would still feel the way i do..depressed, on edge, worried, scared, lethargic, lost, hard to concentrate or function...
I feel sometimes i should be put away somewere because i might be a crazy person, even though i know deep inside im not crazy i just need the right meds. But for what? ive tried ALOT of depression meds. I havent taken adhd meds in 10years, do i bring that up to my pych? I constantly worry i have a serious mental illness, because it just seems to get worse. I dont want to have a breakdown again..i dont want to turn into a bi-polar, or a schizo. Im very worried about myself and dont know what to do..it doesnt help i live with my retired parents and have custody of my 6yo son and lost my licence so i am trapped here, luckily i have a great job working from home. In fact im lucky to have my son as well, otherwise i would find no reason to get up in the morning