Hi all,

I'm on the bus right now and I'm trying not to freely out. Ive been out all day today for therapy and visiting a friend and I just keep getting more and more fidgety. I have a nervouse habit that turns into slight SI and so I've bitten the inside of my cheek and even though I know I look like a freak the pain helps me zone out.

I'm really not sure if I'm going to post this or not, but I really need a destraction. I know I don't have much further to go but right now it seem like forever. I don't like when I get like this and I wish I could be like I was before. I use to love public transit and I use to do my homework on the subway. It use to calm me down and now I'm all wound up. Being on the subway sucked. I felt so traped and there was this woman and I swear she hated me. She looked so sad so I smiled at her and then she just glaired at me. I ended up staring at my bag the whole ride because I felt like I'd done something wrong!

Okay, breathing. I'm almost home. Im trying really hard not to bite my cheek. It's really hard to break habits like these. It's like quitting smoking whiled constantly having a lit smoke in your hand.

Home oh my god thank you!!