Hi (((Laura))) - I am so sorry this happened to you.

When I have fear associated with memories, my T tells me to remember that those things are not happening now, that I am safe and they are "just" thoughts and feelings - I am working on that one, my head gets what he means, but those feelings can be so horrible that I want to escape them.

I am glad that you manage to reach out when your sui thoughts are strongest, these thoughts always do pass, but sometimes I know for me while they are there they can twist things and trick me into believing they are a good solution.

Your group and your T do sound very wonderful and I would have faith that they will continue to help you through this hard time.

Let us know how you are doing - Soup