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Originally Posted by bluemountains
Okay, I will admit that I do not like to disclose the times when I am out of control with my t except in past tense after I am calm. My t wants me to journal at the times that I am processing my emotions. Truthfully, I do, but I record my entries on the computer, so I can go back and edit. I remember seeing other posters discuss this, and I wonder how you feel after you expose your t to the crazy times. I already feel so vulnerable with my t, and I don't know how much more I can put out there.
I'd like to hear the good and the bad with this.
Bluemountains
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EVERY time I get triggered or out of control I end up emailing my T in the middle of those crazy emotions. Sometimes multiple times. It's my way of journaling, instead it's fast tracked directly to him. I don't allow myself time to edit. I WANT him to see the unedited way I am processing things wrong. I used to feel HORRIFIED, VULNERABLE, SCARED and sometimes PANIC... after I sent these emails, but not anymore. Well most of the time.
I have sent him pretty off the wall stuff. I doubt he is even fazed anymore. He does require I say I am okay at the end, if it's really bad. And I am supposed to say something positive at the end of my emails. Sometimes I don't do either. Ooops
I usually send him email after I get grounded telling him to ignore all my prior emails. I'm sure he expects it coming now.
