You're in a really tough spot. Nothing like stating the obvious. Is there any chance you could get assistance? Is there any chance you could turn to a woman's shelter where they deal with recovering women from drugs and alcohol who have children? What about a councelor, therapist, minister, priest, or other help that you might check with for support?

I know that I couldn't get sober/clean as long as I stayed with someone who was regularly pushing me toward using. It was very very hard to do. Some people can do it.

Have you considered trying AA or NA? Those are free resources who would give you people who you could call on for support to get you through the day and the temptations. they can usually be found in the phone book. or online.

I wish you the best. Good luck you are giving it your best I applaud your efforts.

Hurrah for you!!!!!