haha well it does help to just post on PC. handn't even considered moving out just wanted a little nook for myself is all. But the assisted living DOES sound like an option, maybe it will come to that. I mean its not just the noise, my family doesn't really understand what mental illness is. My sister actually told me to just "get better already so we can all move on". They dont get that im sort of stuck with this and its not like i suddenly contracted it, ive been like this probably since always. they just became aware that im crazy for the first time last December and its been uneasy since then but to them, it seems, its more like they think okay its been a year so u should be normal and happy now so get over yourself. AND ive taken to thinking this way about myself too, but after reading some of the threads here and seeing just how many people seem to share my experience im starting to challenge that view of myself.. but yeah thats sorta the situation here