I'm meant to write it on my dairy card then show her next session. and most of the time when I'm spinning out I call her because that's what she wants me to do. she hasn't actually seen me at my worst, only a few people (old T and 2 psych nurses I trust) have and even then it's only when I absolutely cannot keep it together. most of the time I hide what's going on.

I'm not aloud to email my T because she says she doesn't check it often enough so if I'm in crisis she won't respond fast enough. I guess what she means if I am telling her I'm unsafe or that I'm going to end it she wants me to do it over the phone so she can calm me down and stop me.

good luck opening up!