i don't know how to reply to multiple posts in one posting (and i don't want to be obnoxious and post 7 times to reply to everyone individually) so i'm just going to write a collective response touching on what everyone said.

yes, i've told my t about this. not in a straightforward way explaining how bad it is, but she knows it's there. she told me doesn't forget about me between sessions and she hopes i "carry a part of her" with me between sessions. i mean, that's great and all, but at the end of the day that doesn't help me!! and, what does that even mean exactly?

she allows and encourages emails and texts (and calls too, but i've never called- too nervous!) if i am having a hard time during the week. but what about the times when i'm NOT having a hard time, but i just "need" her? does that make sense? i've never really been in crisis mode, but there are so many times i just miss her so much and just need to connect... and WANT to connect... and it's like all day, everyday. with her schedule (she's a well-established college professor, has a successful private practice, and a toddler), i don't think she'd want me to text or email just to say hi, and expect her to communicate back and forth with me during the week... you know what i mean?

i need to find some outside way to get over my neediness to be with her. i think about her NON-stop, and i think about all of the people she sees during the week and who she interacts with while i just sit around and obsess about seeing her again and not being able to for an entire week