I have no dreams. At all. I sit and think sometimes, if I could do anything in the world what would I do? Honestly, there is nothing in the world or universe that I would want to do. I just do things to occupy my unfortunate time here for a reason unknown to me. I don't believe in life after death, or a supreme being, or anything. I think that when I die it will just be nothing, just like how it was nothing before I was born. I think very deeply on things and I have come to the conclusion that there is no answer. All that I can possibly know without a doubt in my mind is that I exist in some form or another. For now and for the rest of this human life I cannot help but to think that this is a total waste of time being here. What drug could make me think otherwise? Probably a drug that alters my mind so much that I would become something I'm not and die anyway. What's the point? I see none. No point in being here or committing suicide. Nothing matters... everything will happen as it will.