maybe you are trying to do too much too fast. Working on the co-conscious and integration process (remaining aware - not dissociated while remembering and experiencing the memories that were separated and stored at the unconscious level is hard. SKR and I had to take lots of breaks in between using my triggers and my remaining aware while expoeriencing the memories that got triggered into rerunning.Try taking every other therapy session and doing something therapeutic but relaxing and enjoyable. Something that will keep all of your senses involved but not something that is geared towards reaching for unconscious pieces of memories. My present therapist LL and I have put doing relaxation visualizations into my therapy sessions. It gives us both a break. She reads from a book called invisable heroes and other relaxation visualization books and I sit back and most times come close to going to sleep. SKR and I would break up our hard work sessions with meeting at the library doing research, play games and find on line support groups.

I don't know what LL's and my next session is going to be It may end up just fun, work or a mixture of both. Its an activity that I have never done. mixing relaxation visualization techniques with a sand tray and toys -little people, objects and so on. this could be intersting. It was really weird how we came to do this. we did not plan it at all. she had just wrote out my appointment card and I noticed this mini (3x5 recipe card sized) sand box displaying a summer scene and I had the urge to touch the white sand in it and while I was feeling the sand she told me that in one of the other buildings the agency owned there was a good sized sand try and asked if I would like to use it, it comes with "toys" and things and relaxation visualization activities. While I was still thinking about it she got on the phone to the other building and found out when the next time it would be available and it turned out the next time was exactly on our next therapy session appoointment date and time. I couldn't pass that coinsidence it was like it was meant to be so LL and I are going to go play in the sand box and see what happens. LOL.

Therapy isn't always just the hard stuff. Maybe this is your bodys way of saying ok its time for something light and easy.