Hi katie! My name is Yvette. Just wanted to let you know I am going through the same exact thing as you. suffering my whole life with anxiety, I have lived different many times, had many bouts of anxiety, depression and horrible panic attacks and times where I felt completely normal. Right now I'm going through it, ugh....but I just got back into therapy, considering medication and I'm reaching out to all I can. I really hope you are too. It helps a lot. And you don't have to feel you are doing it alone because I'm doing it too and feeling the same on the other side of your screen!