spaceid, please speak to your T openly. There is nothing that will shock her, and your embarrassment revealed can be a break-through in part for yourself. As far as her thinking you are nuts, she might reveal to you some mistaken thought habits you have.
She's there to help and not judge; that's why they go through their own education of teasing out their own problems. I had a psch teacher tell me that some of the most
painful part of her education was confronting her own past. It's part of their education to flush out their own funkiness so that they may help others.
hugs, bj