OMG - I can so relate. My depression is so dark, it is hard to get out of bed. A good day is I get dressed, brush my teeth and make something to eat. A really good day is I actually leave the house (usually has to be with someone). I have been actually entertaining the idea that perhaps I have borderline personality disorder and that is why every medication they have thrown at me hasn't worked. The next thing for me is ECT. Hears praying for all of us suffering and hope that it is around the corner.