You are receiving things that, in time, may be given to your friend... If you get triggered, what's your plan for when you are in school?

Looking for other things to SI is very serious, meaning its become an addiction, and will be harder to break that addiction. It is possible, and it can be done. It is harder when you have someone close going through something similar/ if not the same thing. Just because you are going from it from TWO different perspectives. It's hard no matter who you are, or where you are at in life. Best advice, take care of yourself first, and then help your friend.