I get very upset with social situations where I am expected to be with people I do not know. I have a lot of anxiety over whether or not they will like me.

I don't have many friends because I am scared to death to extend my friendship to others for fear of being rejected. And whenever there is a give and take taking place with someone, it is very difficult for me as it is a big trigger. I am waiting for something to happen that will cause them not to like me any longer.

So I spend quite a bit of time alone unless someone I know well invites me to spend time with them. As much out of fear of rejection as it is because I do not like feeling anxious and panicky so I spare myself those reactions.

It stinks and I wish I could change it, but the older I get the worse it gets.