I haven't been here in quite a while but I'm having a hugh pain flare. I feel so alone the pain is unrelenting going on 2 weeks now. I have been a chronic pain patient for over 25 years and have many diagnosis, fibro, chroin pain syndrome, myofascial pain syndrome severe degenerative disc disease had 2 spine surgeries rib resection for thoracic outlet syndrome four level ACDF with titanium plate. Anyway I having a great deal of pain and just can't get it under control. Its so hard because if your'e not in pain you simply can't understand it. My family loves me and I know that but they don't walk the same road. I'm so depressed just have the black cloud hanging over me starting to have obsessive just let me die thoughts which I know lead to a very dark place trying so hard to not go there but just can't get it together I guess I just came here tonight so that I would know that I am not alone in this exhausting walk of PAIN.