latest update. horrible day. first, tempertures are #$% up! its january, its suppose to be cold with snow, not 60! with people in shorts and no jackets! I HATE that weather STAY away!! 45-50 max! 2nd, worked day to evening and when i work to dusk, bad lighting and evening hours #$%$ me off! and it hurts my vision! in addition i developed a headache which just got worse. and trying to leave town through 1 lane bullcrap #$% me off even more with all that it just caused extreme anger! once home #$% people outside!





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now calmed for moment, thoughts about person i feel im in love with. this person is my family doctor. i dont know is i am reading her signals correct or if they are signals at all, but i was thinking about giving her and her assistant a valinetine for valintines day and maybe including a subtle hint to her. I understand with therapy it is taboo, is it the same with doctors/patients. doctors do get married, who/how do they meet their mates? why is it so wrong? if she likes me, and i like her and we are ok with it i dont see what is wrong. whats the worst that can happen she turn me down, wont see me anymore, hate me? my life is over anyway, it'd just give me a solid reason to go home.