Sorry you are feeling this way, You have really been having a rough go of it lately. I am sorry I am not a Dr. so I am not allowed to diagnosis you. I wish you had someone you could talk to close to you Dr., Pastor, Help line, counselor, teacher. school nurse. Someone that could get you started on the road to recovery or at least get some of your symptoms under control. No one needs to live with such pain there is help out there for you. You will be happy again! You are not worthless! I have been where you are at and it is not fun. Things can change for the better if you try to find someone that you trust to listen to you, even if you only trust them a little bit. I wish you well. and I am never sick of someone posting if it helps keep it up!