Thanks so much, Buggs. I go tomorrow for some orientation. This morning, I thought that I would not even go, but would go jump off a high cliff instead. My medication helped me to calm down, and I found the ability to try and take it one day at a time.

I managed to color my hair and shower and have decided to get out of my pajamas tomorrow morning, dress appropriately and leave the safety of my house. If I get through that, maybe I'll even show up for the job next week. But I can't think beyond tomorrow, or I get too scared.

And, yes, it could be just the respite I need - but I won't think too much on that cause, then, I might jinx it.

My hair came out how I wanted it to, so that is a start. I'm glad I did something right today. It's given me a little confidence.