My husband does not understand this at all. He says, "You never seem to be at a loss for words around here!" I try to tell him that being in a therapy session is different. It can be like a deer in headlights. You freeze up at times. It is such a strange relationship. A great one, but a strange one. Its like he/she is your best friend and you want to share everything with him/her, yet you realize he/she are NOT your friend. He/She is your therapist and you have to keep that boundary.

One thing that is really hard for me is the struggle not to think things I say are dumb. Or that they don't amount to a hill of beans! Yet, she makes them into a bean stew. Its like no matter what I say, she will make something of it. She keeps prodding to see why I said this, or why I said that, or why I shrugged my shoulders or rolled my eyes, or whatever....

She doesn't let anything I do or say in a session slip by her. She always wants to watch me. Watch my every move. I wonder if that is normal? I know she is trying to read my body language, and I am glad that she pays attention, but is everything I do something to talk about? I don't mean to sound like she is a nut, but she does pay alot of attention to me when we are in a session together.