So I realized today that fighting this diagnosis is only making life more difficult. The first doctor that said it told me I only had tendencies. The second one says I am so complex I feign my other diagnosis because I cannot express verbally my symptoms. The newest one just put me on meds that caused me to constantly clench my teeth. It was cymbalta. I see a new therapist that specializes in bpd and trauma. I am just so confused about all the diagnosis and no actual feeling better. Growth yes but better no