Your T definitely thinks about you. It's impossible not to. What you have is a relationship, albeit a unique one. They can't not think about you. You come up when they write their notes or when something simply reminds them of you. You mean something to them. Trust me. I am a T and I have also been in my own therapy for 24 years! Yes, childhood trauma creates issues. I can honestly say I think about every client I encounter. My T and I talk about this, too, and he says he thinks about me all the time. It feels really good knowing this, doesn't it?