Everyone is afraid for me...because well...I have turned 21 today...and well....I have an alcohol problem.

Honestly, I am under the influence right now. I know it isn't right for me to say this. But I'm doing...a tad bit better. I've been drinking to the point to a "buzz" and then quitting...when before I was drinking to get TRASHED. People from my hometown are very confused because I used to use many many opiates, marijuana, speed, and alcohol ALL THE TIME and now I rarely do anything but drink maybe a few mixed drinks.

I just don't understand why anyone, including my own psychiatrist, is worried about me turning 21 years old today. I understand that I have had serious drug addictions in the past...but I'm not so bad anymore...I don't know...maybe I still am still bad???

I'm so confused!!!!!!!