Sadly, I have never had a close friend really. I realize that I personally don't let them in because I don't want them to know about the real confusion of mind and existence here in this world as it is. If they even come close to trying to find out who I am, I simply run and hide from them. Now, I live alone with no friends or family because I have pushed everyone away and don't want to have anything to do with them. A serious issue for me; I know. But, that is where I am at. Frankly, I even enjoy my quiet life right now.
So, if you are even realizing that you have friends, I find that an accomplishment in itself.
Sounds like your tears are tears of love and joy. Savor those.