Hey everyone. I am new and posted a few times. I witnessed something in me today that I believe I understand more since reading up about bpd. I had a calm open conversation with my partner and the we talked about some household stuff that needed to be done. (That was the stressor) As I left the house to go do laundry I had rage at anyone who crossed my path. Now my fear keeps me from expressing in public or to someone else. It is impulsive words just purging out. I read about these waves in 2 different books. The I hate you one and lost in the mirror. It scared me cause I always say I am not angry. I say I don't get mad but now I am seeing I do.