Today has been a long and strange day.
I was happy and chirpy all day at work.
But my mind could not keep off suicide, i thought about it all day, i was distracted many times and made a lot of mistakes at work. my head kept going somewhere else, like really short black outs, i was imagining acting out these thing, but it was so real it was like i was there for a second or two, then jolted back to reality.
I think that i have never been suicidal without being depressed.
i wonder how many happy people have killed themselves? I'm not a happy person, but i was happier today than pretty much any day this week.
Has anyone else had this before?