well i did finely fall asleep but i was a half a sleep feeling , i was like floating feeling , i guess u would have had to be there , wake up after 4 hours . ya i took zoloft , depakote , zanax ,lexapro,and more that i cant even rember , man its been rainning all day , being stuck in side makes it worse , i did go to town and get some junk food , i guess i will hear it about my blood sugar being to high later on , i feel crazy sometimes like i am loosen it or have already lost it and i feel like people are looken at me funny , i live in a super small town and seems like everyone knows my name ,, but i cant hide in my woods all the time , tonight i am going to take a super hot bath and drink some warm tea and then take my meds before i go to sleep ,, maybe i will have good dreams , i hate taken meds , i hate it ,, but what else am i going to do ,,