I would call my old therapist. I think if she gave you permission to call or text, then her caring about you goes beyond her job. You are lucky that you have someone who cares that much. Perhaps she can give you a new referral. Sometimes it takes a few tries to get a Therapist you can connect with, and of course it takes time to build that trust. I would also see my psych doc about restarting meds. When you are under stress it is not the time to go off your meds. More likely is that it is the time for a med adjustment.

It is a good thing that you have recognized your mistakes. Now it's time to fix them, if you can muster up the energy. Start by calling your old T. Then take it from there.