I'm sorry you felt that way, shoez, but you got some good information out. I would definitely let T know what you experience during session. I think it would help her understand you better. It sounds like you were dissociating during session and a little after session.

I dissociated more in my childhood and it would be at odd times. One time, I remember being in a restaurant with my parents and nothing bad was happening, and I had the déjà vu feeling...like I'd lived the exact same situation before. Then it was as if nothing was real. I remember touching the table we were sitting at then the wall next to me and I fully expected to put my hand through both, but they were solid.

Thanks for being open and sharing with us. I haven't dissociated since my teens, but I'm afraid I will again when I start the traumatic material.